i would be easier to leave.
Thursday, I got back to work at CW. I was just starting to unload the back of the car when co worker Ct. came out, to put something into the storage bin I was piling things on top of; he saw what I was doing, and turned to walk away. At the same time, since there were only two boxes, I said I would move them. He ignored me, and i said "Get over it'.
He came back out and confronted me, telling me to not talk to him. Never talk to him.
Which, since we have to work together, is not, in my mind an accceptable situation. I told him so.
And, for the second time, he hit me. (interruption, for phone call). Specifically, he tried to grab me by the throat, and ended up hitting me on the jaw. He did this once before, some weeks ago, when he took it upon himself to tell me that he did not like that way that I was goofing around with R, (which is fair, I took something a bit too far, and had already, of my own accord, apologized to R, and peace was made between us; but, R told him about it, and so Ct. decided that he needed to threaten me, and basically hit me twice times (in that poking kind of aggressive pushing way), and grabbed me by the throat.
Since i was in the wrong, and I did not want to raise a fuss, I never said anything to the boss about it. Or C, though I assumed she knew (I was wrong). I tried to resolve matters, I asked him directly and via email what i needed to do to make things right. He never responded. Every time I said anything to him, he just glared at me. Anything being I need to get by you, or I am behind you. Basic work safety courtesy. And he was, constantly and consistently hostile towards me. Until, finally, this.
I am comfortable, more comfortable, in how I dealt with it, physically. I didn't just let it happen, I responded appropriately (and, sufficiently) in my own physical defense. If and if and if aside, i got out of that situation without harm, and I took appropriate steps to deal with the drama in the aftermath. Which leads me back to here.
And then as I was writing this, my CW boss texted, and before I could respond, called. Side note, the little joys of running a small business are without measure. He is on vacation, was leaving on Friday. So, this was timed badly, from his point of view. And, not trivially, I gave two weeks notice (and he asked me to stay an extra two weeks, past that, matching my pay with BtSq). So, i am halfway out the door, anyway. And, during that conversation, he said something that I had not thought of; that I will be stressed, while driving. That I will not, necessarily, be able to my best driving, when I am driving scared. Which is true and valid.
I started this entry as a way to talk myself into staying. I am finishing it realizing, that just because it is easier to leave, it is ALSO, for all concerned, the right thing to do. I cannot drive, with this hanging over me. Bosses assurances aside, I cannot be certain I will not cross paths with Ct, as long as we both work there. Boss can make rules, but Boss cannot be counted on to enforce them.
Financially, it is not ideal; I was looking forward to an income boost, from working two jobs and a lot of hours. But, I can pick up hours from Bite Squad. Oh, yah. I quit working for Postmates, and started working for Bite Squad. Better pay, and they provide the bike (an E bike, no less). It's a trade off of some measure of autonomy (I have to wear a uniform shirt, my schedules a bit more rigid than before, etc). for about half again more money per hour. Probably more than that. It's a much better gig.
And... something I realized yesterday. I don't actually like driving a car. I mean, I do it, and I am reasonably good at it. But i don't like it as much as I like riding a bike. So, there's that.
I learned, a long time ago, that the hardest thing to do is most often the right thing to do. In this case, though... it's not.
The reasons to stay are far outweighed by the reasons to leave.